::...searching for my true"happiness...::

"Good-bye ..." you said
The tears...
The cockles of one's loneliness
Had sleepless nights

But plague wounded
Still, I'm glad...

I can not forget
Feelings of pain and memories
The two spent seeking each other
From this place forever
Say good bye

"Do not go in," I can not voice
While shouting in the back of mind
It's just away even know what this is
Far away
So long bye

Time is inexorably chopped
Will change the landscape
It is self-change
It's not easy

Still in love with you
I'm glad..

Do not forget your words.
We promise you and signed
I walked with hands clasped
From this place forever
Say good bye

I say goodbye to another
Walk with two choices
keep moving forward
From this location
Far away forever
Say good bye

~.~.~.~.~.~.

the point of this song is just to say good'bye basically..

somehow..i just think that..when will i be able to say good'bye..? even, not for forever..but, at least for now..

mlle.areRiantini

walking thru the same path every morning
feel the ordinary breeze and scent
hear the same song
looking at the common scenery

hoping for the same love to come together
to be able to get along
wishing to stand'up strongly
and facing everything alone, by myself

if someday, the time is come
for us to see each other
then, at that moment
i will utter everything to you..everything

so, i want to keep this forever
until i meet you again
someday..somewhere..in somewhat way
that we will cross the same path..just two of us..

~pink BuTTeRFLy~ 27 Avril 2008

Pernahkah kamu merasakan, bahwa kamu
mencintai seseorang, meski kamu tahu
ia tak sendiri lagi, dan..
meski kamu tahu cintamu mungkin tak
berbalas, tapi kamu tetap
mencintainya. ..

Pernahkah kamu merasakan, bahwa
kamu sanggup melakukan apa saja demi
seseorang yang kamu cintai,
meski kamu tahu ia takkan pernah
peduli ataupun ia peduli dan mengerti,
tapi ia tetap pergi ....

Pernahkah kamu merasakan hebatnya
cinta,
tersenyum kala terluka, menangis kala
bahagia, bersedih kala bersama,
tertawa kala berpisah...

Aku pernah...... ...

Aku pernah tersenyum meski kuterluka
karena kuyakin Tuhan tak menjadikannya
untukku...

Aku pernah menangis kala bahagia,
karena kutakut kebahagiaan cinta ini
akan sirna begitu saja...

Aku pernah tertawa saat berpisah
dengannya, karena sekali lagi, cinta
tak harus memiliki, dan Tuhan pasti
telah menyiapkan cinta yang lain
untukku...

Aku juga pernah bersedih kala
bersamanya, karena kutakut aku kan
kehilangan dia suatu saat nanti,
dan......

Aku tetap bisa mencintainya, meski ia
tak dapat kurengkuh dalam pelukanku,
karena memang cinta ada dalam jiwa...

Semua orang pasti pernah merasakan
cinta..
baik dari orang tua... sahabat..
kekasih dan akhirnya pasangan
hidupnya .

Buat temanku yg sedang jatuh cinta..
selamat yah..
karena cinta itu sangat indah Semoga
kalian selalu berbahagia.

Buat temanku yg sedang terluka karena
cinta...
Hidup ini bagaikan roda yang terus
berputar, satu saat akan berada di
bawah dan hidup terasa begitu sulit,
tetapi keadaan itu tidak untuk
selamanya,
bersabarlah dan berdoalah karena cinta
yang lain akan datang dan
menghampirimu .

Buat temanku yang tidak percaya akan
cinta...
buka hatimu jangan menutup mata akan
keindahan yang ada di dunia
maka cinta membuat hidupmu menjadi
bahagia.

Buat temanku yang mendambakan cinta..
bersabarlah. .
karena cinta yang indah tidak terjadi
dalam sekejap..
Tuhan sedang mempersiapkan segala yang
terbaik bagimu.

Buat temanku yang mempermainkan
cinta....
Sesuatu yang begitu murni dan tulus
bukanlah untuk dipermainkan Cinta
bukan suatu kehampaan...
Semoga kalian berhenti mempermainkan
cinta dan mulai merasakan kebahagiaan
yang seutuhnya .

in my room...

aneh memang..
dikota yang begini ramenya..terkadang aku masih bisa merasa kesepian..
ga tau kenapa..

tapi, pasti perasaan ini suka muncul tiba2..yang ada jadi kebawa..dan, meneteslah airmataku yang berharga itu..

anyway..
kepikiran lagi kan tuh..

menunggu itu memang tak enak..

uda ahhh..
jadi mengingat semuanya...
hixxxx

1. And what do we call you?
* chibi chubby achan

2. And how old might you be?
* 24

3. Who sleeps in the same house as you?
* Rosana..Angela..Jasmine

4. Suppose you see your crush/boy/girl
friend kissing another person, what do
you do?
* who is that?

5. Yay, you got a free holiday, South
America or North Korea?
* may i suggest Switzerland..?

6. What would you do if a teacher of
the opposite sex hit on you?
* is he a good-looking..?? hahaha

7. Right now do you prefer a Strawberry
Milkshake or a Banana Cupcake?
* Banana Cupcake

8. Is your phone within a meter radius
of you?
* yuph

9. Wait, are you a guy or a chick?
* a chick

10. What are you wearing?
* my pyjamas

11. What color is the thing you are
sitting on right now?
* blue

12. Are you doing this just because
you're bored?
* you can say that again..

13. What is bothering you right now?
* my dissertation..!!

14. I'll betcha you miss someone right
now
* you win..!!

15. And they would be where?
* somewhere in Fribourg, Switzerland..

16. Can you type over 60 words per
minute?
* never try that..

17. Are you high?
* high on what...??

18. McDonalds or KFC?
* Burger King?

19. Krispy Kreme, Donut King or
Wendy's?
* ...

20. Target, Wal-Mart or K-Mart?
* i'm in London, so...Selfridges..

21. If you were given $100, would you
spend it, or save it?
* spend it...!!

22. If there was a large spider in the
room, would you stay?
* screammmmmm...!!

23. What time is it?
* 17:59 (GMT +0)

24. Would you ever become a vegetarian
or even vegan?
* yuphh..but, only for 3 months

25. Where are you right now?
* room sweet room

26. What is your desktop picture?
* me..in Geneve, Switzerland

27. Can you swim well?
* yupp

28. Do you shop for clothes?
* of course..!! no doubt about it...!! i do fond shopping

29. Do you believe in ghosts?
* yuph

30. Would you rather go to Tokyo or
Paris?
* Tokyo..or, may i suggest Geneve or Stockholm...!!

31. How about Melbourne or Rome?
* Romeeee...!! love Italian..!!

32. Do you have a guitar in your house?
* nophh

33. Are you listening to music right
now?
* yup

34. Who else is in the room with you?
* no one..

35. In winter, would you rather wear
jackets or hoodies?
* hoodies

36. Do you wish you were somewhere else
right now?
* i wish i'm in F*** now..!!

1. The song you've been most singing to
yourself recently?
"c'est reve bleu"

2. What do you currently want right
now?
finishing my literarture review for my
dissertation...

3. What are you doing today?
well, it's weekend, either stay @ home
working on my literature review or
pop'in to a store in Bruton Street...!!
hihihihihi...

4. Are you hungry?
yuphh

5. What have you been thinking about
most today?
now is 07.05am, so...i can't answer it yet

6. Do you ever just sit outside and
watch the stars?
yuphhh

7. What is your current annoyance?
how to spell these words in French...!!
hixxxx

8. Do you want a new cell phone?
not really...except if Stella McCartney
create one...

9. Are you waiting for someone right
now?
yuphhhh...!!!!!

10. Name two things you're looking
forward for next month?
nothing...
it's April...the busiest month of all,
coz no day'off at all...!!

11. Can you make new friends easily?
so so..

13. Do you plan out what you wear the
day before you wear it?
i can't do it here...since no one can
predict what will happen to London in
the next 12 hours

14. What is life to you?
my life is a thing that i have to live
in...i found my life is up'side-down..
but, that's the cycle of life, right...?

15. Have you ever fell for your best
friend?
noph...

16. If you had a chance to save someone
significant to you, would you?
yuph, no reason to say no

17. How many times do you eat each day?
here...? i would say like 2 times only...

18. How do you feel right now?
mmmm...bored a bit

19. Are you a morning person?
yuppphhh

21. Think of one person, stick with it.
You don't have to say their name. Would
you pick them up alone 100 plus miles
away if it was your birthday?
...for this one person, i'll do
anything...!!

22. If you could go back in time and
change things, would you?
noph...but, i just want to go back and
have those memories all over again...

23. Give two reasons why you get
distracted in work.
...mmm...

24. Do you think it's funny when people
get hurt?
not @ all

25. Would you rather go to Tokyo or
Paris?
TOKYO..!! i've been to Paris, but i do
prefer Tokyo...well, but Geneve is more
than a pleasure...! hihihihihi

27. Do you wish you were somewhere else
right now?
maybe yes..maybe no..

28. How often do you get onto
friendster?
once a day, i think...

29. How long can you go without your
mobile phone?
beat me...not even a minute...my
Blackberry is everything...!!

30. Do you have any enemies?
hopefully no..

31. What would you like to say to one
person in your mind?
"tu me manques et j'et aime...!"

hmphhhh...
sebenernya sih bingung juga mau nulis apaan disini...?
tapi, dari kemaren itu...aku punya perasaan ga enak...i don't know...
pokoknya...there's like something bad happen...or, perhaps..will happen...!!
(that scares me)

anyway...what i did adalah...i did make sure everything is fine and okay, setelah itu sih emang...yaaaa...feels better lahh..
not as bad as before...

anyway...
hari ini ga tau lagi mau ngapain...soalnya uda mentok...!
sebenernya sih seharusnya baca tugas and thesis si PhD...! but...ohrgghhh...so damn lazy...!!

-aR-

I walk all by myself...
But I don’t regret
the things I decided back on that day
at times, the pain gets worse
Though I’m still in love
I will not stray the path I chose

If somehow, this time
a light called hope
could appear
then surely, we could be together
and I’d get the strength I need to live on

Those days of love, those times you loved me
its warmth, still has not faded
I can’t say anything to you
No matter what the words might be
I simply can’t bear to tell you everything
On the nights I can’t be with you, even though I want to
I lay in my room, hugging myself without sleeping
I still believe in love, so once more
I will believe, and I won’t give up, cuz I have
Faith in my future

Show me the way
To the days of yesterday
If they’re things that can be thrown away
then they’re just simple things
This kind of selfishness,
you answered it with kindness
because I needed an anwser

Caught in a mass of people
I feel shaken, and yet
there are some things that don’t change
So whenever I stop myself, I am reborn,
because my dream gives me the proof I need

Whether this freedom is eye opening
or mundane, I know I can’t rely on it
Don’t make it fade away to be
drained away
because it’s connected to my heart
On the nights I can’t be with you, even though I want to
I can hear your voice
I do believe in love, so I won’t let go
And I will hold on to the things I believe, cuz I have
Faith in my future

I will believe, and I won’t give up, cuz I have
Faith in my future

FAITH, by Yuna Ito

1. Happy?
~ so..so..

2. When was the last time you went out?
~ this afternoon

3. What was the last movie you saw?
~ i believe it was Enchanted..

4. The last place you went?
~ Cath Kidston, Marylebone..!! love it

5. Missing someone?
~ yeah..so much and much..

6. What made you smile today?
~ i got the towel that i desire..

7. Are you scared to fall in love?
~ i do..

9. Ever thought you were in love?
~ yuphh...i'm afraid i'm madly in love at the moment

10. What is your status right now?
~ mmm..

11. Did you dream last night?
~ nope

12. What were you doing this morning at
7 am?
~ sleeping...

13. What were you doing this morning
at 10 am?
~ having my late breakfast, i think

15. Name a country you want to visit
~ Switzerland..Suisse..!!

17. Do you have a tattoo?
~ noph

18. What was the last thing you ate?
~ butter cookies

19. Last thing you drank?
~ pineapple juice

21. Do you have a nick name?
~ are..achan

22. One thing you do everyday?
~ kissing mon petit polar bear..!! favourite thing to do every morning and night!!

23. Are you a type of person who easily
gets hurt?
~ i think so

24. The last thing you said to one of
your friends?
~ yuphh...that's okay...i'll be just in my room anyway...doing this Visa thingy..

27. Rate your day 1-10.
~ today..? 7

28. Did anything exciting happen
today?
~ noph

31. Type something that is on your
mind?
~ sleepy and so lazy

32. How many things in your past do
you regret?
~ just 1 thing...if i can turn back the time, i would like to go back in summer 2004 in London...!! never forget June 14, 2004 @ 09.15 am

33. Do you have a best friend?
~ yesss

34. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
~ i wish i could work for Stella McCartney...

35. What's up for tomorrow?
~ i'm going to the library..

36. Have you ever had your heart
broken?
~ yuphh

38. Do you like your life?
~ yuphh...love it...!

39. The last person that kissed you?
~ Rosana and Jasmine...they kiss me everyday

40. Has one of your friends ever
stabbed you in the back?
~ nophh..

42. Do you have more friends that
are girls or boys?
~ girls, i supposed

43. How long have you had friendster?
~ more than 3 years, should be..

46. Have you ever kicked your friend's
butt?
~ yuphh...bumm..bumm..

47. What are you listening to right
now?
~ L'amour by French Affair it's a French song..

it feels...better now...
after what i have done on Sunday...!!
but, what i can do right now is just waiting and waiting and feel "doki doki"...!

can't give any further comment, though...
it's just the way i feel, and nothing goes wrong with it...
*hopefully so...*